You know guys , for my age even if you doesnt know it you will maybe think I dont care that much about future or the present maybe looks but I am already deep into it , its like a matrix , you can't escape it you will only overthink about how people perceive you or the "famous" example "would she still act like this if you looked like this" i dont hace any real friend i just like to be with them but not talking with them I have a big lack of social skill I was always the "shy" kid but suddenly bullied bc of my looks i was crying everytime in my room "why it has to be me" or stuff like that and I never rlly talk about my problems bc people can't understand my words I dont even know how to approach girls in their eyes I look "good" , the only thing im worried about its always "how they perceive me" or " how do I look good ?" I always stress about something that I was always bullied for , im constantly checking me in the mirror for like 30 to 1h to see if I look good if I have any flaws even when "friend" ask me to go out i sometime say no bc im bloated or not feeling my looks and bc im scared of being bullied bc of it , insecurities never goes .
Sorry I dont write good English its not my language
Sorry I dont write good English its not my language
