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This makes me feel bad… ‘fraud higher genetic quality’? Wow bro.
I never really tried to improve myself just to get a girlfriend. I think I just had a late phase of actually wanting one, and when I did, I got the one I have now… and well, in the end, she was the one who confessed to me.
But that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve always tried to improve my “genetic” side, to be seen as someone others would think ‘I wish I were him,’ even if indirectly. I was always seen as a role model, but at some point that wasn’t enough for me.
I started noticing aspects of myself that others pointed out. They weren’t necessarily flaws, but to me they were variables worth optimizing—subtle elements in my appearance or specific details that could elevate my overall perception, making me seem more unattainable, more distant from the average.
And to be honest, I did achieve it. I was always seen as ‘the best.’ But when it got to the point where I started faking some things, it became a problem. I knew it, but the benefits of being seen as the attractive, smart, athletic, “popular” guy were greater.
Being a fraud might make things go better on the outside, but deep down it still feels wrong.
I want to clarify that I don’t think I’m insecure. Even if I stopped doing all of this, I’d still be above average in many aspects here.
But I do it because there are things I’m not the best at, and it’s better to be, right?
But I do it because there are things I’m not the best at, and it’s better to be, right?
Lmk if you like this kind of thread.
