Rotting is a vicious pleasure frfr, make me feels good even though I do know that I'm not doing shi and I can't most of the time cause I do not find any pleasure and envy of living, going out, eating, sleeping and pleasurable things (yeye ts is just depression). Before it was better, I go out, still in depression tho, and I do healthy activites, for my body and my mind. But I stopped, the stares, the judgement of my chink family and how they treat me make me feels guilt. It's like I don't deserve to do them cause I rot and don't go to school, but I can't cause I won't, and it just spiral down. It makes me borderline suicidal sometimes. Supa cope, feels good on the moment. My new years resolution is to looksmax without a care in the world, I don't care about getting my health in danger, I have nothing else to lose.
davidmcall1899 you feel me nih?