sadly ill have to delay my special post about expanding the palletal structure and the maxilla to later my apologies (this is gonna be long ass yap session holy fuck))))((())(((
Through my life I have wondered why do others have it better? Why am treated as filth? The answer was 3 simple factors.
1st. was my appearane, I started to realize people didn't like me due to my head being shapen like an egg I've grown insecure of my looks coping and calling people fat bullying them for disabilities I still do it now to cope but it truly will never fill the void in my heart and calm the agony I experienced as a child, I've been bullied for my country,the way my name was written,surname,defenselessness,not understanding how the world works, I've felt hatred towards everyone and the world,my only way of somehow defending myself was aggresion,I showed dominance by beating the shit out of my bullies it was the true way to show that I'm not weak.
2nd is my family I have never had good relations with my mom,step dad,my mom's partners. The sole reason why I am here on this forum instead of being a normal child is because I am living with my mom instead of my father I have hated my mom for a long time,she is a selfless,lying,cheating,useless,abusive,hypergamous,iqletic,eqletic foid my father told me the entire truth about my foid mother my mother tried to cope and say it's not true but it was all for nothing I knew my dad was right when I've shown her the proof she told me she is gonna disown me which is what I desired in the first place.
3rd is my intelligence I've never known anyone irl who had truly understood me,multiple times I've been called a prodigy being told by my psychiatrist psychologist that I am way above my mother's and step father's intelligence I've hated the way I thought the way I was made I have not been able to accept it for a while my true destiny is to suffer for eternity there is nothing smart about me I have felt dumb,uneducated,unaware.
Summary: I'm here to ascend in order to fill the void in my heart that has been made by this cruel world and finally be able to accept myself and forget about all of this that happened to me I have seen that people did actually treat me better after I started looking better this world is a miserable place and we are here to suffer.
Through my life I have wondered why do others have it better? Why am treated as filth? The answer was 3 simple factors.
1st. was my appearane, I started to realize people didn't like me due to my head being shapen like an egg I've grown insecure of my looks coping and calling people fat bullying them for disabilities I still do it now to cope but it truly will never fill the void in my heart and calm the agony I experienced as a child, I've been bullied for my country,the way my name was written,surname,defenselessness,not understanding how the world works, I've felt hatred towards everyone and the world,my only way of somehow defending myself was aggresion,I showed dominance by beating the shit out of my bullies it was the true way to show that I'm not weak.
2nd is my family I have never had good relations with my mom,step dad,my mom's partners. The sole reason why I am here on this forum instead of being a normal child is because I am living with my mom instead of my father I have hated my mom for a long time,she is a selfless,lying,cheating,useless,abusive,hypergamous,iqletic,eqletic foid my father told me the entire truth about my foid mother my mother tried to cope and say it's not true but it was all for nothing I knew my dad was right when I've shown her the proof she told me she is gonna disown me which is what I desired in the first place.
3rd is my intelligence I've never known anyone irl who had truly understood me,multiple times I've been called a prodigy being told by my psychiatrist psychologist that I am way above my mother's and step father's intelligence I've hated the way I thought the way I was made I have not been able to accept it for a while my true destiny is to suffer for eternity there is nothing smart about me I have felt dumb,uneducated,unaware.
Summary: I'm here to ascend in order to fill the void in my heart that has been made by this cruel world and finally be able to accept myself and forget about all of this that happened to me I have seen that people did actually treat me better after I started looking better this world is a miserable place and we are here to suffer.
