A means to an end? (25 Viewers)

[Brian]

A strange wave of emotions full of nostalgia, anger and misery feelings hit me like a truck hitting a child brother.

My brother. Tears are escaping my eyes right now, brother.

You know what? When I met you I got motivated to research much more, brother.

You know when you was gonna send me the money to buy my stuff, i just knew you're someone totally different.

I've always felt happy with you, even tho we didn't talk much as you what was happening in my and your life, but I still felt you beside me, and I think I might forever.

Just like the quote of my language saying (pashto) "malgarai Che malgarai we, bya de Ka ba stang ke ham nawe, ta ye ehsas kawe."

If a friend is an actual friend, you'd still feel him. And I did. Idk how to explain how sad I was before this and how worse I got after reading this my man, it's so fucking sad and ik how it feels since we have/had similar lives.

Same shit happens to me everyday, but you and suicide? Brother ISTG I got goosebumps and I wanna scream cuz I can't hold this much pain and struggles, I relate to you which makes it even more sad and you were my BEST FRIEND, my brother. Idk man I'm losing my shit as well, I hope you didn't my brother.

Brother idk how to express my emotions into words brother I hate all this brother you're so much like me

If anyone thinks this is cringe, I don't give a singular fuck man. Rip my brother I love you I wish we could hang out at least 1 time I wish I could scream and cry as hard as I could since I'm losing my shit as well.

Rip

 

[Brian]

This world is so cruel my brother, you were so much of a great man my brother you're a true man.

 

[User123]

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Hello fellow looksmaxxers, some of you know me, most don't.
This is my manifesto, maybe my last message to all of you.

This does not mean i intent to hurt someone/people or women as i have thought long and hard about how all those scenarios would play out and decided against it.
If i do get the balls to kill myself, I will do it quietly like the loser i am.
This will probally get turned into a meme and joke and so be it.

I've always had friends so im not going to pretend otherwise. Although I had few i cherished them.

My life ever since the age of 9 has just been a living hell. It's so hard.
Despite having friends i've always ended up alone. And the loop hits me harder and harder everytime; amplified even futher when i discovered LM.
Despite having friends i always seemed to ruin everything to the point on me getting left on read, to reply to later. A chore if you will.

I love the friends i've made here but i cant do this anymore

My parents have always made it clear they hated me. I was nothing compared to that of my brother. As much as i tried to cope around it soon i accepted the truth.
I've just been dealt a fucking shit hand and no matter how much i try to ammend it via exogenous hormones, coping, substance abuse.
The loop hit me harder and harder.

And even now i sit here and write this ignorant of the harsh reality.
No one cares.
Not my parents, any "friends" i had, sometimes no matter how hard you have to accept the truth.
You have to accept the fact that if you have to try so hard at a task as easy as making meaningful friendships, its over.

And i know why it is too. I cant even look myself in the mirror anymore. Each day lacks anything intresting, each day nothing happens at all.

My own parents have stated many times im a fuck up. A disgusting pig (when i was more overweight still am like 16% bf but whatever)
An ugly freak, the list goes on you get it.
Every pill there is rapes me, family, money, they all stab me.
This life is fucking hell ive always been neglected since birth. What even was the point of it? To bring me a life full of misery
And it worsens seeing everything i've ever wanted all happen to my brother like he is Gods gift to earth, hes taller, mogs me and has never had any problems with social interactions and relationships like me. I just happen to be the inferior one.
My genetic short-commings have lead to this hell that i cannot escape and its truly over.
I feel sick when i look at myself
Im at rock bottom. I can not handle it anymore. I fucking hate this. I just want this all to be done, to be at peace.


And i know there is nothing for me, no one sad or waiting because im hideous.
No girl, no parents or friends. It's like im nothing; like i dont exist
No one else will keep it real with you, but if you're not atleast MTN and tall its over.
Just accept it. I do not care about your "water". Its over for most of us

Never had a girlfriend or anything close to love.
Im just so tired.
Nothing has ever really gone right for me and maybe that was a sign.
I dont know what my future holds but i hope i can survive this if this is my last message. Thank you everyone for everything.

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Ive been thro this but had no friends
it gets better bro, its super hard right now i get it but it will not matter in the future
im a genetic failure too and ive accepted it that it does NOT matter



This is probally the most brutal thread in .gg history . reality hits pretty hard

 

[NoBONES]

Ive been thro this but had no friends
it gets better bro, its super hard right now i get it but it will not matter in the future
im a genetic failure too and ive accepted it that it does NOT matter



This is probally the most brutal thread in .gg history . reality hits pretty hard

Last seen 20 minutes ago I don’t think he’s done it hopefully

 

[User123]

Last seen 20 minutes ago I don’t think he’s done it hopefully

nobdy rlly does it most of them just larp

 

[User]

did your protocols not work?

I don't see why you would do this unless literally nothing is working