It gets to a point where you’re just tired of people in general not in some dramatic way, but in that slow, exhausting way where you realize how many people just waste your time, act interested for a moment, then disappear like it meant nothing. You try to give people chances, you try to be patient, you try to actually talk and actually befriend them, and then they either vanish, stop replying, or switch up out of nowhere like you were never even there. And it’s not even about expecting anything huge from them, it’s just basic consistency, basic respect, basic effort, and somehow even that feels rare. People say they care, people say they’re down, people say they’re real, and then the moment you actually need them or even just expect a normal level of presence, they disappear or give you some half‑assed excuse. And after it happens enough times, you just get tired not angry, not emotional, just done. Done with carrying conversations, done with being the one who tries, done with expecting stability from people who can’t even figure out what they want. You start to see how temporary people are, how easily they switch up, how quickly they leave when it stops benefiting them, and it drains you. It makes you feel like everyone is replaceable because that’s exactly how they treat you. And eventually you just pull back, not because you hate anyone, but because you’re tired of being the only one showing up. You get tired of wasting your time and energy on people who don’t value it, tired of the fake interest, tired of the disappearing acts, tired of the inconsistency. It becomes easier to be alone than to keep dealing with people who can’t stay solid for even five minutes.
If those specific people ever read this, fuck you, your a degenerate piece of shit.