I've had the shittiest family, ever since I was born I was at a constant stress level. My parents never stopped fighting and hitting each other, it got to a point where my mum got knocked out and she was bleeding everywhere. He is super religious and made me pray the rosary each time they fought (which was literally every day) because he thought it would "cleanse" us. I genuinly thought about cutting because of the rate of abuse I had to endure and the constant stress that they had on me. Keep in mind I was very young here (like 10-12) my mom wasn't that different either, when she was pregnant with my brother she said that she would leave us and abort him, she did not do that though and she got custody over me and my siblings when my dad got taken to jail. When he was freed he had to move to a different country. I had to move to a new school and had very little friends, I barely talked and people made fun of me and even beat me up once. once I got to high school, I just couldn't take it anymore and asked my mum to move me online. Which she did and theres where i'm at right now. The only thing my dad gifted me is my bonemass, which is surprising considering how much of a high cortisol childhood I had. we occasionally have calls like once a year. At this point in my life I think I have been the happiest I've ever been, which wouldn't really be much considering my life before.
