I 100% agree with you, one of the reasons i came back here was because irl I have to censor myself, and even then I am still seen by everyone as low inhib which for me is a halo tbh (I am extremely extroverted).
I would recommend maybe even psychedelics could help, they've helped me ascend quite well, although I do understand it may not work for everyone, you know yourself better than I ever could, but definitely try something as hard as it is, I've been depressed before and it isn't fun at all, what worked for me was getting active irl, albeit I did have to force myself into situations through copius amounts of uppers (Caffeine, Adderall, Nicotine).
Depression is really shite man, hope you get through it, all I can say is do whatever it takes for you to get out of it, hopefully these upcoming cum tributes from
davidmcall1899 will be a good laugh lol, there's always something to look forward to haha