[Finley]

I have never wanted to kill someone more in my life. These past couple of days i have felt like shit looked like shit and its been bugging me. So last night i was talking to my friend and they said something i did not like and it was only little but i got so mad and just kept getting angry. They thought i was joking so i just played it off as a joke. But after a while the anger just kept coming back. I did not wanna ruin our friendship over me being mad at nothing so i just said bye and left the call. Its so stupid but i feel the need to blame everyone for my problems. I feel like this like 6 times a year for like 4-5 days but every time it gets worse. Does anyone feel the same? I really am scared to die but i just cant live. It sucks it just gets worse and worse and feels like its a loop but the loop is forcing me to end it. I feel like this post is going to get hate so this is probably going to be my last post.

Bye bye for now.

 

[12aff]

I have never wanted to kill someone more in my life. These past couple of days i have felt like shit looked like shit and its been bugging me. So last night i was talking to my friend and they said something i did not like and it was only little but i got so mad and just kept getting angry. They thought i was joking so i just played it off as a joke. But after a while the anger just kept coming back. I did not wanna ruin our friendship over me being mad at nothing so i just said bye and left the call. Its so stupid but i feel the need to blame everyone for my problems. I feel like this like 6 times a year for like 4-5 days but every time it gets worse. Does anyone feel the same? I really am scared to die but i just cant live. It sucks it just gets worse and worse and feels like its a loop but the loop is forcing me to end it. I feel like this post is going to get hate so this is probably going to be my last post.

Bye bye for now.

Fed post

 

[longhairedChad]

Venting Does anyone feel this way?
Thread starterFinley Start date5 minutes ago

 

[Peacepeace]

hi,

this might come off as really stupid nt advice, but if the friendship means a lot to you I think the first step would be to let your friend know that you feel these moments at random times so you can life some of that pressure and frustration off your shoulders and communicate that youre not in the right headspace for some discussions.

another thing that has worked for me is unironically talking to yourself, (yes schizo activities but let me cook), since these feelings are recurring it might not be a single problem bugging you but a mental instability, it is important to sit with your thoughts and not condemn yourself but recognise what you feel, think and do so you can form a better relationship with yourself and dig deeper.

sorry this may not be what you want to hear but we do care about you.